Space

I have a place to live for 6 whole months…almost…and sort of…I can’t move in yet because its not done…but it will be…I hope.

Now I have to find the job that goes with the rent payments and the etc. that comes with actually living some place. That’s gonna be a bit tricky.

What I really want is a space that belongs to me. Kinda like the Ground Hog gets his own little old oak stump. I don’t have a place really…just bits of space in other people’s homes and bits of time when they might not be home. I never feel alone. I never get the type of rest that comes from sitting around in your favorite chair with a cup of tea or a beer with a worn out book or a notebook. It’s not the same when you are surrounded by other people’s comforts. Other people’s treasures don’t shine the same way. You can’t tell other people’s guests that they are ugly or ignorant and that they should leave because you are one too and maybe its better you step out.

I get weighed down by the fact that I am stuck living in places that don’t feel like home. I am tired of temporarily setting up shop and living out of suitcases, tired of lugging all of my food around in a laundry basket, tired of my car acting like a giant closet. I want a window to put plants in and I want a bed to put my quilt on. I want a closet for my stuff and a kitchen that I can keep my dishes and pans in. I want to be able to come home to silence…or to have people over or go out if I want. I am tired of being forced in to being social when I am not a social person by nature. The more stretched and stressed the harder it is for me to function like a person is expected to and the more often it seems to be required of me. I understand 5L a lot more lately. Space is precious.

Catch Up

A list I meant to post ages ago. We went up to Maine. We went to Acadia National Park. It is a wee little park compared to some of those other national treasures out west. It has a wee little tourist town associated with it known as Bar Harbor. We finally started keeping track of license plates we saw on the island when we were driving around because there were more other plates than Maine plates. I have included a map mostly so you can see who isn't cool. This is what we came up with…

States we saw:

1. California
   
2. Colorado
   
3. Connecticut
   
4. Delaware
   
5. Florida
   
6. Georgia
   
7. Hawaii
   
8. Idaho
   
9. Illinois
   
10. Indiana
    
11. Iowa
    
12. Kansas
    
13. Maine
    
14. Maryland
    
15. Massachusetts
    
16. Michigan
    
17. Minnesota
    
18. Missouri
    
19. New Hampshire
    
20. New Jersey
    
21. New Mexico
    
22. New York
    
23. North Carolina
    
24. North Dakota
    
25. Ohio
    
26. Oregon
    
27. Pennsylvania
    
28. Rhode Island
    
29. South Carolina
    
30. Tennessee
    
31. Texas
    
32. Vermont
    
33. Virginia
    
34. Washington
    
35. West Virginia
    
36. Wisconsin
    

Canadian Mini-Nations or whatever:
Quebec
British Columbia
New Bruswick
Manitoba
Ontario
Nova Scotia

And the outlier:
Washington D.C