Sunday, June 25, 2006

A summer book...

The thing that he was about to do was to open a diary. This was not illegal (nothing was illegal, since there were no longer any laws), but if detected it was reasonably certain that it would be punished by death, or at least by twenty-five years in a forced-labour camp. Winston fitted a nib into the penholder and sucked it to get the grease off. The pen was an archaic instrument, seldom used even for signatures, and he had procured one, furtively and with some difficulty, simply because of a feeling that the beautiful creamy paper deserved to be written on with a real nib instead of being scratched with an ink-pencil. Actually he was not used to writing by hand. Apart from very short notes, it was usual to dictate everything into the speakwrite which was of course impossible for his present purpose. He dipped the pen into the ink and then faltered for just a second. A tremor had gone through his bowels. To mark the paper was the decisive act. In small clumsy letters he wrote:

April 4th, 1984. (...)

For some time he sat gazing stupidly at the paper. The telescreen had changed over to strident military music. It was curious that he seemed not merely to have lost the power of expressing himself, but even to have forgotten what it was that he had originally intended to say. For weeks past he had been making ready for this moment, and it had never crossed his mind that anything would be needed except courage. The actual writing would be easy. All he had to do was to transfer to paper the interminable restless monologue that had been running inside his head, literally for years. At this moment, however, even the monologue had dried up. Moreover his varicose ulcer had begun itching unbearably. He dared not scratch it, because if he did so it always became inflamed. The seconds were ticking by. He was conscious of nothing except the blankness of the page in front of him, the itching of the skin above his ankle, the blaring of the music, and a slight booziness caused by the gin.

George Orwell, 1984

3 comments:

Lu said...

were you playing for serious about the rice and the white wood chair? Because i'd be happy to eat rice again once my sockets heal for keepsies.

It was good to see you too on that day i saw you.

i'm reading a book whose opening line is, "if this typewriter can't do it, then fuck it, it can't be done!"

The Red Queen said...

Me, I want to know the title of the book Lu is reading and if it is good after that great first sentence.

Lu said...

http://www.hennaforhair.com/ is a wonderful resource.

Are you going to be at Cami's on wednesday? if so, bring the chair and rice and we'll make it a real party.

I'm reading Still Life with Woodpecker, a sort-of love story by Tom Robbins. It's clever.