45 days until...

My birthday is in 1 month, graduation is in 45 days, and almost every day in between something that thinks it is important happens. I think I just might be stressed out. I have been stuck in rhyming couplets all week. While there is nothing wrong with couplets or rhyming in general it just did not carry my thoughts well and I never even got to the point of writing something down. Props to R'Ed for a little lighter fluid cause even if yunz don't care I always feel better when the words finally come out.

Pass me by, I promise (RRC 03/29/06)

Not quite a stain
Not humanities gain
Just there to been seen if you want to
To be saw if the wanting stops
And if you never wished a want
Pass me by

Sidewalk corner serenade
A tear or two, a sob
From knowing the truth
Always
But not paying no mind
From reading the bits in between the lines
And forgetting a forest of trees

I’m not on my knees
Just bent headed and tear streaked
Won’t let you see
Wrapped up in glitter light-dark
A lonely midnight rain
Shadows mixed with rivulets
Washing gutter pennies clean

Not quite a stain
Not humanities gain
Just there to been seen if you want to
To be saw if the wanting stops
And if you never wished a want
Pass me by

You stay with what you know
And I will go
There are no tears in these eyes
Soul forced lies
A collection of pieces
I promise, I promise, I promise
I’m fine

I know you love her
You only wanted me
Stepping in to silence
This is not a walk of shame
But I’ll be damned before you know
The way these dreams go
Watch me walk in this rain
Watch them wash away

I’m not quite a stain
Not humanities gain
Just there to been seen if you want to
To be saw if the wanting stops
And if you never wished a want
Pass me by

I promise…I don’t lie

-Jn