Sometimes...

...something seems more autobiographical that it is...

...sometimes it doesn't.

Last Night, Last Laugh (04/06/06 RRC and Ispinach)

So I said no last night.
I think I just might mean it
More than those times before for sure
And maybe forever
Maybe never again
And I drove to the ocean with them
Just like old times, you and me
Nights spent at the beach
…together
And I walked it alone while they huddled in mass
God, that water is cold
And yeah it’s still salty
Does that mean you still love me?

:: Laugh::

Like it never really hurt
Like I saw through the lies
Like I don’t dream about you
…sometimes
I don’t want it
Take it back

:: Laugh::

And the stars were all shining
To outshine the moon
I caught a shooting star
Do you remember that night?
Life was turning out right
Promises made to be wishes broken
Fast forward a year
In a lower hemisphere
I kissed you goodbye
When I kissed him hello
Under brighter stars falling
But hey at least I thought of you

::Laugh::

Like I think it mattered
Like there’s no more tears to cry
Like I have the answer
…sometimes
I don’t want it
Take it back

:: Laugh::

Cause life’s a hard joke
I just let them smoke and I spun
Spun to be alone
I spun myself silly
Since I was already sick
I had a reason then
Puked in the salty sea
Gave it my fears since I couldn’t give tears
And I couldn’t swim out to give me
Then we just drove home
They leave me alone
If I promise I’m okay

::Laugh::

Like someone is watching
Like I know the reason why
Like this is a new life
…this time
I want it
You can’t have it back

-Jn